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SAM'S DINER

It was just an ordinary Diner in downtown L.A

She was a single, stressed out, workaholic. He was ...well, he  just was.

Bagel

Everyday the same

breakfast at ‘Sam’s Diner’

plain bagel

toasted

no topping

 

I sit watching the traffic

from my usual stool

elbows on the counter

pondering the day

 

then a voice in my ear

‘not having anything more on that?’

I glance round

deep blue eyes

black wavy hair

wide grin

 

a piece of bagel lodges in my throat

I shake my head

pretending annoyance

‘Nope’

 

he rubs his chin with his finger

dislodging a rogue crumb from his mouth

he's frowning

‘y’know you really need to dress that up a bit

a piece of ham and some-’

‘no thankyou’

he looks away, eyebrows raised

he sighs

‘if I were you-‘

‘you’re not’

he swallows

‘I was only suggesting…

maybe it would taste less-’

‘Less what?’

‘Well boring was what I was going to say-’

 

……………………………………..

 

thank God a pause

I need to finish my bagel and go

work calls

‘you come here a lot?’

pause broken-damn!

I wipe my mouth

slide off the stool

‘Breakfast is good here-most days-

well it’s been a pleasure

work calls-‘

 

was that defeat in those blue eyes?

‘Catch you tomorrow maybe-’

ah-not defeat

the last piece of bagel sticks in my throat…

 

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Breakfst at Sam's

Breakfast at 'Sams'

just the same

well nearly...

that voice in my ear - again

'See you took my advice'.

I resist turning my head

glancing down at my bagel

egg oozing from the edges

egg should slide down easily

it doesn't...

He eyes my half-filled mug

'Top up?'

I am still trying to swallow

he takes it as a yes

nods smiling at the waitress

'Two more coffees Molly'.

Glances through the misted window

'Nice day-'

Why won't this egg shift?

Why doesn't HE shift?

Why can't I shift?

He sips fresh coffee eyeing mine

'Better not let it get cold'.

I stare down into the mug and swallow

bliss-egg dislodged

where are words when you need them?

A thankyou is needed

I fumble for my purse

'Thanks'

His hand rests on my hand

pushes

'My treat.'

Alarm bells.

Two more gulps

I'm gone

I glance back from the street corner

a misted silhouette is watching

then moves away.

 

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Sam's 'Oven'

Sam's place was like an oven

my blouse stuck to my back

a thin line of moisture hung above my lip

 

I sipped my ice tea and kicked off my heels

it was quiet, too quiet, and the air was still

so still, I thought I had died

then that voice

too close

 

'boy is it one hot day!'

 

Too hot to turn around

but I knew who it was

 

him

 

I grabbed the Daily News and fanned my face

was I hot outside or inside?

 

'Damn fan busted again Sam-'

 

(Ignore him he might go away

he doesn't)

 

'Hi

wanna refill?'

 

I released the straw from between my lips

trying to act surprised and cool

failure

 

'Why not?'

Did I say that?

He slid round the bar and poured another two

slinking back round

settling slowly, painfully, onto a stool

next to me

 

'Mercy it's hot-even the flies are sun-bathing-

this'll cool you down.'

 

It didn't.

 

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Sam's Autumn

Windy outside

still inside

 

smell of rich perked coffee

heaven

 

a sudden draft

leaves blow in

 

'Boy, that is windy'

 

I smile inwardly

not daring to glance round

 

I smell him before he sits next to me

sandlewood and spice

his jeaned leg brushes against mine

 

I tremble inwardly

not daring to look up

 

'Mornin' 

 

'Good morning'

I hear myself answer.

 

'Two coffee's Molly'

'Well I wasn't going to-

but as you're buying-'

 

I find myself looking up into two blue pools

a wide smile

perfect teeth

 

'How's work?'

he asks, eyeing up the cookies

'Work is fine thanks'

I hear myself reply.

 

The fresh aroma of coffee

ignites my senses

'What about you?'

'Huh?'

'Work. You do have a job don't you?'

 

Still too busy eyeing up the cookies

he takes two chocolate

 

'Two cookies Molly-

what was it you just said?'

'Nevermind-gotta dash'

'Sorta between jobs right now'

'Right'

 

I start buttoning up my coat

he offers me a cookie

 

'Might need this later'

I go to take it but think twice

'Calories'

'Go on, live a little,

I won't tell if you won't'

I smile

He smiles back

'Thank you'

'My pleasure'

 

I don't hear his goodbye

the wind masks it

more leaves blow in.

 

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Chilling at Sam's

Frost

hard frost

 

I slip and slide into Sam's

new boots were not a good idea

 

my head is on fire 

beneath my woolen hat

my neck sweats

beneath my knitted scarf

 

I unbutton my long coat

folding it neatly on the stool

next to mine

 

voices in the kitchen

 

'Come on Sam

two hours'

 

'Jo-will you open your ears

and listen?'

 

'Look-what's two hours, huh?'

 

'Jo, I've already told you,

I can't afford it

Now I've hungry people to feed'

 

Silence

 

Then-

'Don't look at me like that,

I'm not the enemy

the taxman is'

 

'I'll make it up to you Sam,

I promise

just two little hours?'

 

'I must have the word 'mug' written on my forehead'

'Thanks Sam'

'Put me down! Now who is this person

you want to impress?'

'Ssh!'

'Oh-a broad, might have known'

'Ssh Sam...not too loud'

 

Silence

 

I recognised the younger voice

it's him

 

now I know his name

 

He saunters out of the kitchen

on spotting me

swallows

 

that smile appears

 

'Mornin'

'Morning...Jo'

 

His face freezes

he knows I heard

 

I sip my coffee

pretending to read the paper

uncomfortable silence

he moves slowly

round the counter

I can smell him

suddenly the paper is boring

 

'What's it short for?'

'Huh?'

'Jo. What is it short for?'

'Joseph'

'Joseph'

 

I drain my cup

 

I start to retrieve my coat and scarf

 

He moves toward me

then eyes my boots

 

'Expensive boots'

'Yes'

'Go careful out there, black ice'

'I know'

He beats me to the door

'Go careful, y'hear?'

I nod, trying not to laugh

'I will ... Joseph'.

 

 

 

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Snow at Sam's

A white blanket surrounds us

Christmas music punctuates the quiet

my coffee tastes good

 

he's up a ladder

throwing garlands over cross beams

his teeth grip onto a balloon

the balloon falls to the floor

a silent gentle bounce

 

I try not to laugh

 

'Damn!'

 

I still try not to laugh 

carry on sipping my coffee

 

'Sam!'

 

No response

 

'Sam!'

 

'What!'

a voice yells from the kitchen

 

'I need you a minute'

'I'm busy Joseph'

 

I hear a long drawn out sigh

I can no longer ignore it

 

'Having trouble up there?'

'Nah...s'okay...I got it'

 

I give a shrug and try not to eye 

the long legs

tightly clad in blue denim

 

more snow starts to fall

I suddenly don't want to leave

but I must

 

as I make it to the door 

he decends the ladder

his eyes look down into mine

 

'Thanks for the offer'

'No problem'

I turn the handle

'Hey, I don't know your name'

'I know'

 

I make it out into the cold whiteness

the face stares at me

through misted glass

 

I'm gone

 

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Tinsel

Late night shopping

tired feet

I do something 

I've never done

 

head to Sams

one for the road

 

in the far corner a tree

undressed and ready

 

laughing from the kitchen

he appears

carrying a large box

overflowing with tinsel

 

close behind

a small

dark haired female

she is pretty

she thumps him

on the back

 

he drops the box 

grabs her

tickles her

they laugh together

 

I suddenly feel 

intrusive

 

who is this girl

who makes him laugh?

 

too busy to notice me

too busy laughing

 

I decide to leave

three's a crowd

 

he glances up

but I'm through the door

out into the cold night

 

I don't see his face

his smile relaxing

the young girl

tugging his arm

 

'What's up?'

'Nothin'...'

'Come on then'

'Huh?'

'The tree needs tinsel'

'Yeah...tinsel...sure...'

 

 

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Irked

Avoided Sams 

all last week

 

cross with myself

irked

 

I take a deep breath outside the door

it opens for me

it's him

 

''Mornin stranger'

 

I say nothing

feeling more irked

he wears  his smile

widely

 

'Can I get you anything?'

 

I make him wait as I unbutton my coat

he goes to take it

I hold onto it and sit down

at the counter

 

he saunters round to the other side

'Coffee?'

'Please'

my 'matter of fact voice' 

cutting the air

 

he places my coffee in front of me

along with a large cookie

 

I push the cookie away

'no thanks'

he pushes it back

I return it

this goes on a few more times

resting his elbows on the counter

he tries a smile

'Y'know, it's only a cookie'

'a very large cookie'

'what harm is one cookie gonna do?'

'make me fat'

'no harm in that'

'really?'

'you could do with putting on a few pounds'

'really'

 

he swallows uncomfortably

he sees my eyes narrowing

I'm feling more irked

'I had no idea you had been studying

my physical features so intently'

 uh-oh

he sidles around to me

an appologetic look

clouding his face

 

'I shouldna said that,

way outa line'

'Right'

 

he looks above my head

I follow his gaze

mistletoe...

 

now I'm really irked

 

 

 

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Bad Timing

'Joseph!'

Voice from the kitchen

our eyes travel down

from the ceiling

they link

for a second

'Joseph!'

 

he doesn't move

'alright!'

he stays put 

waiting

'Joseph!'

'alright already!'

he slides off the stool 

walks slowly away

through into the kitchen

 

a door slams somewhere

muffled voices

 

I stir some milk into my coffee

waiting

for what?

 

after what seems like ages

Sam comes out

flustered and cross

 

'stupid!'

 

I study him over my mug

'okay Sam?'

he flusters about and looks up

sweat encasing each brow

'yeah-I'm okay'

 

but I can tell he isn't

 

bad timing

 

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Revelations and Rheindeer Hats

 

 

 

Sam gave a tired sigh and poured me another coffee

 

'On the house'

'Thanks'

 

I sipped the hot liquid

it tasted good

I had to ask-

 

'Everything alright Sam?'

 

he was wiping the counter down

it didn't need wiping

 

'When is it ever right? 

Throw me a date and time why don't you?'

 

laughter from the kitchen

a familiar voice

she appears

dark hair and treacle eyes

wearing a Christmas apron

rheindeer hat

it's her

the ticklish one

 

Sam smiles

waches as she carries on dressing the tree

'How's it goin' Rachel?'

'Nearly done-would have got done sooner

if my stupid brother

hadn't goofed around'

 

(Brother?)

 

she drops the tinsel and walks over

eyes me beneath a thick

glossy black fringe

 

'I know you

you're the one

with the expensive boots'

 

I give a quizzical smile

she is sharp

I let her continue

but Sam butts in

 

'Rachel, where's your brother?'

'Don't ask me. Anywhere I guess'

'Well, when you see him, tell him he has

some overtime coming-

IF he can be bothered to turn up'

 

the rheindeer hat nods and goes back to the tree

 

whistling from the front door

it's him

'Got some more decs Sam'

'Haven't we got enough already?'

'Com'on - place still looks bare'

he delves down the bags with childish glee

'got some of those candy canes that light up,

and a big blow up Santa'

'Joseph. A word'

'Huh?'

'In my office?'

'You haven't got an office Sam-'

'My kitchen then?'

 

he glances up from the bags 

I quickly glance away

not realising I have been staring at him

since he arrived.

 

Rachel has been watching me

she sidles up

(must run in the family)

 

'You fancy my brother?'

 

I feign astonishment

 

'Me?'

she keeps looking into my eyes

unnerving

'Mmmm, don't know about you'

'Sorry?'

'Someone high class like you,

eyeing up my big brother'

'Excuse me?'

 

Sam and 'Santa' return

he is smiling

probably glad he got some overtime

 

he returns to delving in the bags

then looks up

I feel his eyes burning into my back

 

'wanna help?'

Sam grins and carries on

wiping down the counter.

 

I slide off the stool

buttoning my coat

 

Rachel watches

then smiles at her brother

'I'll help you-

she's too busy'

 

I stagger out into the cold

humiliated

found out

by a rheindeer hat

 

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Christmas Eve at Sams

Been avoiding Sams

like the plague

 

but Christmas Eve

has always been good

here

 

it's late

11.30

 

I slide into a booth with my coffee

smooth columbian

fills my mouth

warms me

 

lights are lower than usual

Bing Crosby croons

in the distance

 

I gaze into my half drained mug

suddenly aware of a prescence

 

him

 

he's standing by my table

 

my eyes travel upwards

towel drapped over his shoulder

pencil above his ear

 

his eyes hold mine 

then he smiles

 

'Wanna refill?'

'I-yes, please, thank you.'

words are sticking in my throat

like huge peach stones

 

he returns

but hovers

'Want anything with that?'

'No thanks...'

 

People start filtering in

bags of shopping

one with a small fir tree

 

he leaves for just a short time

only to return

this time he has a plate

 

with a cookie on it

iced Rheindeer face

on top

 

I shake my head

'No thanks...'

he looks crestfallen

'It's a Christmas special-

Cinnamon and apple-

freshly baked

try it'

 

I eye up the cookie

the smell is delicious

the face looks stupid

he pushes the plate to me

it nudges my hand

'Com'on-it's Christmas,

let your hair down'

 

he looks round and spots Molly

'Hey-Molly, takin' a break-okay?'

she nods

carries on serving

he flings down the towel

slides in oposite me

still eyeing the uneaten cookie

'You gonna eat that before it

runs away to find it's sleigh?'

 

I smile

he slaps the table

'She smiles, maybe I can raise a laugh

or two?'

'I shouldn't'

he glances furtively up and down the aisle

'I won't tell if you won't-honest'

 

he watches

as I pick up the aromatic disc

filled with raisins honey and cinnamon

I take a bite

it crumbles on my lips

disolves in my mouth

I have suddenly

gone to heaven

 

his smile is triumphant

'That was good huh?'

I nod

unable to speak

savouring every morsel

 

for one second I close my eyes

time enough for his hanky

to touch the side of my mouth

it makes me jump

'You had a little piece in the

corner...waste not want not.'

 

'Joseph!'

Molly's voice pierces the air

'Comin'

he points at the half eaten cookie

'I wanna see that gone

by the time I come back'

 

he joins Molly behind the counter

I pick up his hanky

it has the letter J embroidered

in the corner

I smell sandlewood

 

thirty minutes later

he is sitting back down

the cookie is still there

he frowns

 

'Hey, didn't I say to you about

eating your cookie?'

I pass over the hanky

he pushes my hand away

and for one moment

I feel strong fingers

enveloping mine

 

'Keep it, I got lots more,

probably get box loads for Christmas'

 

his eyes penetrate mine 

just for a second

 

'Finish the cookie, shame to waste it...eh...

what's your name again?'

'I never told you'

he gives a sigh

'Let's make it even.

You know mine

only fair you tell me yours'

 

I sip my coffee

it's getting cold

 

'I'll get you a fresh one'

he's gone before I can say

anything

 

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11.55 pm

It's late

 

he is closing up

I start to move out

 

he's there

 

'one for the road?'

I glance at my watch

'it's late'

'tell you what, I'll get you another coffee

you tell me your name'

'I - '

he's gone

 

I'm still debating staying

when he returns

 

he withholds my mug

'uh-uh'

I frown back

oh, what the hell

'Emma'

he smiles that smile

and hands me my coffee

'that didn't hurt did it?'

my face colours

stupid

can't remember the last time I blushed

the candle is still lit

on the table

his fingers hold something

mistletoe

 

'midnight...a little after

unlucky for some'

I swallow

staring at the small sprig of leaves and white berries

he twists it between his fingers

 

'Merry Christmas Emma'

 

he leans toward me

blue eyes flashing in the candlelight

'time to pucker up Emma'

my heart is starting to thud

I can hear it

I can feel it

I lean in

I can feel his breath on my mouth

cinnamon

our lips just meeting

then-

 

'Joseph!'

Sam breaks the spell

'Joseph, you locked up yet?'

 

the blue eyes close

'yeah-I've closed!'

 

suddenly I start to laugh

he laughs too

 

'when am I gonna get to kiss

those pretty lips

of yours-Emma?'

 

I get shakily to my feet

buttoning up my coat

 

he unlocks the door

I pause

'not tonight Joseph,

not tonight'

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Happy Ever Aftermath

Christmas

here then gone

 

I'm sitting 

on a snow covered bench

across from Sams

 

the air is still

traffic slow

I try not to think of the last two days

boring

on my own

poor lonely

unsociable

workerholic

Emma

 

a light flicks on inside

it's him

he stops and looks out at me

I shiver

not with the cold

 

the door opens

he shouts

 

'come inside-Emma'

'no thanks'

'you wanna stick to that bench?'

'maybe'

'you'll catch your death-

come on-coffees on-

nice and hot'

 

I look up at the sky

pregnant with snow

what am I doing here?

 

He hovers 

then he's putting on his jacket

he runs across to me

he looks like a lumberjack

all fleece and tartan

collar up

 

he plonks down next to me

rubbing his hands

 

'you wanna die of hyperthermia?'

'what?'

'you gotta death wish or somethin'?'

 

I sigh

I turn my head

to face him

his eyes stand out 

even more in the 

whiteness of the morning

 

he purses his lips

the lips I nearly kissed

Christmas Eve

 

'y'know,

it doesn't have to be like this'

'like what?'

'you out here, me in there.'

'but you're out here'

'well I am now...'

 silence

 

his hand moves to mine

long strong fingers curl round mine

I can't move mine

his hand feels warm

safe

 

'I guess we can freeze together'

I start to laugh

so does he

 

his other hand appears

Mistletoe

 

'you gonna kiss me now 'Emma,

with the expensive boots?'

 

he moves nearer

I move away

until I am on the edge

I haven't the will to stand up and run

 

his face moves round to mine

I stare ahead

then his eyes block my vision

his lips touch mine

warm

soft 

gentle

 

my eyes close then open

he smiles 

pulls me to my feet

 

'come in out of the cold

Emma'

 

we walk back to Sams

holding hands

 

today is better than any Christmas

I have ever had

 

 

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