'Hello' I said, 'it's raining', you laughed and took my coat,
I wondered why I'd said, that your face read like a note,
I dried off in the bathroom, my clothes were soaked, right through,
and then I smelt her perfume, but your wrap still smelt of you.
When I returned, two brandies were warming by the fire,
your body sprawled the sofa, dark eyes filled with desire,
patting the space beside you, I did not hesitate,
this wasn't some cheap meeting, no adolescent date.
Your crooked smile undid me, the one that always wins,
that is when I soon forgot, where day and night begins,
seduction I was new to, always a closed rule book,
but you could break the weakest heart with just one smouldering look.
A magnet, you had drawn me, ever closer to your spell,
weaving webs of potency straight into it I fell,
my lips burnt with the brandy, your lips hot on my neck,
wanting so to make this work, inside I felt a wreck.
Molten eyes devoured mine, I felt that I had drowned,
arms entwined my body but without a single sound,
you pulled me up, I staggered, just like a drunken doll,
carried lifeless from the room the ceiling seemed to roll.
My fingers traced your laugh-lines, that creased around dark eyes,
all the time a voice inside 'stop doing this he lies,'
deft fingers released buttons, my heart was every place,
untrained in sex,our lives complex, I felt my fears unlace.
Experienced your hands were, showing oh so many ways,
I learnt more in those moments, than I really had in days,
voices beating in my head, awoke in love-stained sheets,
steady tapping of the rain, words echoeing 'he cheats'.
Sliding from the dozing form, where shameless lust had been,
glancing back toward the bed, where I had felt a queen,
slipping into shoes and jeans, suppressing guilt and dread,
still voices pounding hard and loud through tears- 'Goodbye,' I said.
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